If it helps any, I am fifty six years old, and just now found this site and have been seeing a therapist for about eight months now. I thought I was okay, depressed at times, but I'd had a rough childhood (taking care of my mom- who had paranoid schizophrenia and three younger sibs when I was fifteen) I dropped out of high school because I couldn't cope with school and home, took a babysitting job and wound up pregnant and married to get away at age eighteen....my children resent me for being a poor mother, had a very hard time with marriages and work.....to find out I have Bipolar? Geez, I wish I could have had help way back when.....whatever you have to do, go do! Please don't wake up one day at fifty something wondering what will become of your life? Feel the fear, and do it anyway Just take the first step to get help.....the rest will come.....and Brometheus, you just may win your girl back Fright, you can get the help or not, your life will go on, with or without you....I hope you choose with Please keep us posted, were here for you....