HUGS BP
What I decided to do is just quit drinking. It's just not worth playing with fire. when I started drinking, I just wanted to do adult stuff... my church had controlled all that part of my life to where I felt like a child. One of the things I did to break free of the guilt control was to go buy alcohol. Now that I've done that... maybe I don't need it anymore. It sure does help me relax, but that's the deception of alcohol I guess... it takes more and more to get to the same place of relaxation. I never drink more than 2 glasses... but I think I probably could be an addict. It's not about quantity, is it? It's more like why a person is drinking. I can't imagine why anyone would drink for no effect at all.. but maybe the thing is "why" you want to relax. Am I drowning my sorrows? Or am I just socializing? Too complicated to figure out... I'm not able to handle it I guess so better just stay away from the stuff. I think I can do that if I find something else I enjoy just as much. Maybe some hot herbal tea at night instead. Thanks BP