well, last friday i realized that i always have been having flashbacks since i was like 12. i just realize it now and im 16. now, i have to go to residential maybe. and i finally realize what causes my anger and anxiety. i never been abused or anything but, things..little things cause im too sensitive, traumatize me..weather it was being stuck with a bat in a small closet in the dark, or being tremandesly jealous of my mom. and my mom and dad's divorce, and my ex boyfriend and i having sex but then i wanted to stop and he wouldnt-and i couldnt get him off me. it hurts alot. and lately, i have been having flashbacks of these things and more every each minute if the dat. and it again, it hurts. heh. idkk...now i might have to go to residential, and i have HORRIBLE seperation anxiety on top of it. But i also regret some of it because i never realized it, or even tried to think that that was the problem in my life. i could of been on the right meds all these years and maybe the right kind of therapy. sucks..

well, thanks for letting me share. i appreachiate it.

deb