I've said it to someone else on these boards - I could've written this myself. I'm going to be blunt with you, as I have had to be with myself, because my relationship is so good, and it makes me so happy, that I'm not going to allow myself to overthink it into oblivion. I'm not going to do that busy-minded little trick I like to do and predict the future, subconsciously driving the car off the proverbial cliff in order to prove myself right - I refuse to believe that I can't have anything this good happen to me, or that the other shoe will drop.

Do not read into what your boyfriend says to you. Men are, traditionally speaking, very straightforward, and you will find that they tend to say what they mean. He says he wants to be with you and, indeed, he spends the time he has available with you. Logic dictates, then, that he wants to be with you. Do you want to hear something else? Is that why you keep posing the question? Are you subconsciuosly pushing him to tell you that he finds you tedious, hard to be with, or a drain on his emotional resources? Why don't you give him the benefit of the doubt and try approaching it from that direction? Assume he cares for you and is telling you the truth. Assume he spends his time with you because you are great company and you, yourself, are a walking example of personal triumph over insecurity and a confusing childhood - that even though his parents couldn't make their marriage work and his life was forever altered as a result, you make him think it could work out for him.

You are allowing your insecurities from the past invade your logical reality, and you are looking for proof of impending doom where there is none. Certainly your relationship might end some day for some reason, but do not do yourself the disservice of paving the road there and having to live with the knowledge that you've let your fears blind you to the joy, success, and potential that are right in front of you.

A great relationship is inherently terrifying, because at some point you come to realize that you are completely vulnerable and may end up getting hurt. The idea isn't to insulate yourself from that vulnerability, but to cherish the experience of trusting someone else enough, and having the chance to be open, optimistic, and loving and receiving the same in return. Do not look outward for your explanation here. Look inward and take an honest assessment of your fears. Put them under lock and key and take the time to dismantle them one by one as your reality proves your fears wrong on a daily basis. Be positive this relationship is meant to be, and enjoy the ride