I've always really struggled with being in the moment in T, and it just now occurred to me that some people on PC might have the same problem and/or advice

Its frustrating because I might be reliving a terrible event or having a complete nervous breakdown the day before T. And I will want to talk to her about it, but as soon as I get into her office all of my emotions just go blank. Usually I will just tell her how I was feeling before, but I feel like it would be so much more helpful if she could actually help me process my emotions as well as my thoughts, which is hard to do when I'm just feeling numb while talking to her.

And I'm trying to figure out why it happens. All I can come up with is that it is either 1) an automatic response left over from when I was still getting to know T and didn't feel comfortable showing emotions in front of her or 2) that being in her office, which is a super safe space for me, and having her there to distract me means that I don't feel the same emotions that I would when I'm alone and dwelling on issues.