she uses words like deep trama and flashbacks and being violated and beat up.and it feels like she is stabbing me with a dull knife.i want to yell" stop it this isnt me, and this isnt right"i couldnt talk much but she did.

she said she thought i was so brave to bring in that book and to share that story.but then she started talking about trama(I HATE THAT WORD)and flashbacks.i didnt want to listen to her at all.i told her i had no words and believe it or not she said that was ok.WOW for some reason that felt to good.she said it so calmly and was so accepting that it just was i felt so relieved she wasnt going to try to make me talk.she said that she was sorry for how much pain i felt but explained that the rewards of feeling that are great.not so sure i believe that.maybe will write more later have to take this in little doses i think.not so sure i am ready for this.