(((((((((((granite))))))))))))) it will get better with time! it really will. I am glad you aren't alone with that story anymore and that T sounds like she is being patient with you......it will be OK!
I don't like the word trauma either, but I think it's OK to acknowledge that trauma DID happen to you.......I am learning it is OK to say, I suffered, I went through trauma, traumatic experiences.......it's part of healing from them, I think.