Karebear - I've had similar expereinces as Tree....not that I felt that I screwed up the relationship, but that I completely panicked after revealing something to my T, and just wanted to pull back and quit. When I told my T that I wanted to quit, she always asked me why, told me she was very glad I didn't, and asked me to trust her just enough to try one more session. My T always managed to make things better, but I had to take that first step of doing something different and not running away when I felt the relationship might be screwed up.

Just this once, maybe you could try something different too...maybe you could try turning things over to your T and asking her to help you fix whatever it is you think you messed up and help you learn how to change that behavior. If you keep running everytime you think you've messed up, you'll never learn how to not run away.

Thinking of you, and hoping you can work through this.