I am 35 year old male. I have been deceitful, dishonest, egotistic, self-destructive, self-conceited, self-putying, rude, cowardly, and judgmental in my actions towards others and especially my mother-in-law and wife. I am wondering what disorders these traits describe. I am scared that they could become worse if I don't get them under control. I feel the only way I can start is to have at least a basic list of disorders I can further research. my marriage is on the brink of disaster because of my actions and I don't want to do any more damage than I already have. I want to change my ways but I am having a hard time sticking to the necessary actions. I go the right direction for a few days then go back to the old ways. I was initially diagnosed in 2006 with Moderate Depressive Disorder after my first marriage failed due to the same behavior patterns. Can someone give me an idea of the different disorders that my list falls into or point me to where I can find out myself? Thank you.