Thank-you all so much for your encouragment and also sharing your own experiences and difficulties - this is a wobbly path we walk at times isn' it?

Although I can't see a way to make telephone contact with my T, that's one less thing I can criticise myself for now as I know I am not on my own with that problem

I can also almost get my head round the fact that making contact may not be a failing, but instead progress in being able to identify my needs and seek help - wow that would be a big step forward for me.