Hey all,
So my sponsor emailed me back Saturday...turns out she was on vacation and I didn't know because I hadn't talked to her in a month or so. I am going to call her but I don't really know what to say. I don't know that I am ready to jump into AA full steam. Especially with all that is going on post-hospital. I just don't feel like AA is my primary focus right now and I feel like I would be wasting her time if I don't make it priority #1. I guess I'll just be honest with her about where I'm at and what's going on. She doesn't hold back so I know she'll tell me what's on her mind. I love her and I love AA and I will continue to go to meetings...it's just not my top priority right now. I'm almost afraid to call her and tell her this because I know she won't be happy. I don't really know why I wrote this just needed to get it out.