so, it looks like my son is bipolar. the doctor said he doesn't want to call it that yet, because he doesn't want my son to be labeled. he said for now we'll call it mood disorder not otherwise specified. he put my son on lamictal (on of the meds i'm on too). he was very confident that we can fix this problem.

i should feel relieved, but i just feel so incredibly down. i can't believe i gave my child a mental illness. i should have never had kids. i feel so guilty. and selfish.