oh, you guys. Thank you.

I can't tell you how much it is helping me to come here and read your messages. Thank you. I need that validation, badly. And you are helping me pinpoint what it is about my recent interactions with T that is not sitting well with me, which is vital because if I just know that it feels wrong but not what about it feels wrong then it's hard to communicate that to T.

I do believe my T has my best interests at heart. I do believe she cares about me. I also believe that she is a little caught up in her own emotional reactions and maybe isn't being the T I need and the T she wants to be right now. But, she is trying, and I am trying, and that gives me some hope.

She thanked me several times for asking to come and see her tomorrow. I don't know why, exactly, she kept thanking me, but it felt good. I will probably ask her tomorrow. It seems like right now we are talking about our relationship and nothing BUT our relationship, which is not how we usually do T. So it's the time to ask those kinds of questions I guess.

PS Wepow, as usual you have an excellent idea. I will make a list of what I need in T. I will give a copy to her and keep a copy for me. I will make sure that she knows that I'm aware that she isn't obligated to meet those needs.