That does sound traumatic.

There are county services which offer mental health assistance to those in need. Cost is usually come to using a sliding fee scale, taking income amount & spenditures into account. I'd recommend looking down that avenue.

That said, you could always come into PC more often, to talk about things with other members. Many, many "wise elders" make this site a regular visit ~ to share things that they've learned in life. As you grow, you can then pass along tips to help others through similar things. That can help a lot, in my humble opinion.

Gentle hugs to you..