I don't know even where to begin. I feel like im parinoid all the time, angry, numb, upset confused. Im freaking out and I'm on the verge of tears and I'm clueless. I have SAT's this weekend, a test in a few hours, a project I haven't finished, I have my dean and my mom breathing my back to finish collage applications. I keep fighting with my parents, I even called my mom the dreaded C-word, for no reason, I even slapped my "father" across the face and I didn't even care. I feel like I'm falling apart.

Im not motivated to do or fix anything, I can't sleep and idk just like i want to scream then sleep for a really long time