that makes me so sad, rainbow. I am so sorry. I don't know if I'm at that point, but the idea makes me very, very sad.

A couple friends (not on PC) have suggested to me today that maybe it is time to take a break from therapy. I came here to post that and to say that the idea is swirling in my head and I'm having a hard time sorting it out.

Just typing that I had to stop and let myself sob. This hurts in such a deep place.

My T teared up during my session today, too. Once for sure, possibly twice. I know this isn't easy for her either.

I want to tell her that I'm sorry I have the needs I have, but I still have them. They are real. I can't make them go away by ignoring them. I don't know what to do.