This post could go in several forums. I don't know what is going on. Maybe I do, but it's such a dang mix of feelings. I'm sad, I'm angry, I could cry, I'm stressed. Many of you already know that I often times don't like to eat and I'll post something once in a while in the ED forum. I just so need a break and for life to change. I'm afraid that what if things get worse or continue like this?! I don't want to start freaking again like I did a few years ago. I've been getting too emotional reacting to things. I found a website that will send free faxes, so I sent my doc another fax. I just sent him one the other night. I wish he'd have voice mail or email. It would be so much better and easier. He's got work to do so I don't want to call. It's not like this is an emergency, just an annoyance. I would love to talk to him though. I don't have an appointment until next week yet.