I'm 41 years old.

My current DX is Bipolar II but it was Major Depression for most of my life. i've also been treated for panic and anxiety issues, PTSD and obsessive thoughts.

I was brought up with 1 sister. We were both adopted as babies and we were very lucky to have the family we have.
I found my biological mother when I was 30 and it turned out that all of my mental issues are hereditary, which is very frustrating for me. i am so grateful she gave me up but resentful that she gave me so much crap to deal with. I have no contact with her now.

A friend of my parents' abused me as a child and I had no idea anything was wrong until I was 22 and it came back to me when I remembered another trauma. My mother was extremely reluctant to believe me until she called her friend at my begging and found out it was the reason the couple divorced.

I have been hospitalized 4 times - the last time I had ECT - i don't know if it helped but I was so depressed I figured i would try it.

i try to be compliant with my meds but have a tendency to forget morning meds. Even when they are sitting right next to me.

Even when I was thin I thought i was fat. I have a terrible body image and I'm not sure if i'll ever be happy with the way that I look. i've already had one plastic surgery and may possibly have more this summer.

i left my last 3 jobs due to stress - but in 2 cases was able to get let go and collect unemployment. I'm learning that although I love to work, I do not love working in an office anymore, and I absolutely hate female bosses.

I quit smoking cigarettes 8 months ago and i don't miss it at all. i quit smoking weed almost 3 years ago and i miss that a little.

I am a survivor.

This was very hard to write