I'm nervous but mostly sad. Butterfly, thank you for your reply from the dbt perspective. I am going to write out a dear man this morning.

Two things I want to explore with t today are the idea of taking a break or the idea of setting up scheduled phone contact. I'm thinking twice a week for five or ten minutes. That actually makes me feel a little calmer inside, I don't quite know why. I'm hoping that my t will agree to that. It is something suggested and encouraged in dbt, so maybe she will be OK with it.