I would but they don't have school councilors where I live in the Middle East, nor do they have helplines of any sort. I have told my mum about my urge to hurt myself but she said it's all part of my compulsive obsessive tendencies and that I wouldn't act on it - the same goes for suicide. I have SI'd but I've thrown out the scalpel heads I stole from school for that purpose so I wouldn't be tempted to do it again. Therapy isn't an option though... not until I go to the UK. But I'm afraid to go to therapy because I want to pursue a certain career and I think it will go against me if they found out I was so messed up in the head. I'm even reluctant to discuss it on here in case someone found out for that reason but then I can't ignore this forever because I'm not getting better and I want to overcome my problems. Would it go against me? And how can I help myself without therapy?