I have a session with my t tomorrow morning and I'm feeling really nervous (well you probably all figured that out from the title!). Last week I shared one of my abuse memories with t for the first time. In some ways it doesn't really feel like it's even sunk in yet that she knows one of them so I feel semi-okay about seeing her again. During the last week though sharing this memory with t has made me realise that I really am going to have to deal with this stuff and that it's not going to go away. And that's brought up a lot of intense feelings (mainly complete disgust with my own body) that I know I need to talk about. I just don't know how I'm going to be able to bring it up and talk about it with her sitting in the same room looking at me the whole time. I feel like we're going from talking about slightly difficult things to extremely difficult things without any steps inbetween. But I can't tell these feelings to go away and come back when we get to the extremely-difficult-things-to-talk-about part of therapy - I tried but it's not working. I know if I go and I don't talk about it I'll really regret it but it's going to be so, so hard to talk about. I just hope I don't go in there and shut down and end up having a pointless session or let t side-track me with other stuff. Anyone want to come with me?