It's time for me to let some stuff out and this is the best place to do it for me right now.

After a severe depression, my mood is better but now my anxiety and irritability levels are rising. I'm having nightmares. I wake every morning anxious as all get out. My meds have me sleepy all freaking day long and they make me forgetful. I freaking overdrafted our checking account for the second time today and forgot to pay the credit card bill!!!!
I was laid off last November, unemployment runs out in a week, can't find a job suitable to me going to grad school, and we have to get through the summer before I get more loans.
My T is urging me to cut back on sessions to become more "independent," which is bothering me even though it's a good idea.
I eat right and exercise and still have trouble taking off weight becuase of the meds. AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGG!!!!!!

That said, I know many people have it a lot worse and I am blessed to be able to get the help I need for my bipolar. I also know that I am focusing on the negative, which is not good for me. BUT, I just needed to get it out.