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Old May 04, 2011, 02:08 PM
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Originally Posted by Sannah View Post
I too found that subjects of love made me cry. I realized for myself that it came down to the fact that my mother could never show me that she loved me. The subject of love made me cry because I needed to mourn that my mother couldn't show me that she loved me.


THis is a good point granite! It reminds me that with me also, my mom wouldn't allow me to love her. She was in her own world with no connection with me so she couldn't show me that she loved me and I couldn't show her that I loved her.


Because you were being triggered? The past was being triggered up?

I've got to leave in a minute. But Sannah, my Mom DID show me love and DID have a connection with me. But I agree something was off. I wanted to say "I love you" when she was very sick before she died, but I didn't. NOT because I didn't love her, either. She loved me very much. Of that I am 100% sure. I don't come from a background of neglect. My T just says maybe our "fit" wasn't good, but the love was definitely there! I loved her very much too!!