Sorry, Beth. I'll never agree with your line of thinking. If you want to stay out of the hospital then you know what you need to do. Right now, Beth, you are defeating yourself.

And, fyi, telling people that you won't open up to them just makes them even more paranoid/worried and even more likely to send you to the hospital "just in case".

I do believe you told me several months ago that going the hospital was the best thing that could have happened to you. Being scared is perfectly fine, but you're going out of your way to be sneaky.

Respecting your feelings is one thing, but when a friend is so deeply troubled that they can't see the light for the trees then sometimes you have to make unhappy and unwanted decisions. Right decisions aren't always easy.

I would rather have you angry at me than not have you at all. And I do believe your T would agree with that statement.