I too feel alone. I have nothing to do with what is left of my family, they wrote me off years ago. I have my 2 teenaged daughters and DH. That's it. I don't have any close friends, several acquaintances, but no friends. Since DH's accident, I'm even more alone. I work, take care of everyone and sleep that's it. But I've always felt this way. I envy people like my receptionist who has many close friends upwards of 15-20 years. I encourage my daughters to form long term friendships, telling them they'll appreciate as they get older. However, I've never been able to do that myself.