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Old Jan 16, 2004, 01:49 AM
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I've had the bipolar (depression) first when I was 21, then in my late twenty's I started to have muscle spasms in my neck. Now that I am 31 is has progressed to the chronic pain. I have always struggled with depression but these last two years I have been battling this pain issue and my depressions are so much more intense than ever.

I guess I just never know which one is acting up the worst, the depression causing my flare up of pain or the pain which intesifies the depression. Earlier I was very sad and upset, now I feel less depressed and notice more the pain in my neck and shoulders, which gets really bad when I am typing or raise my arms for along time. When they both get going full force at the same time is when I just want to scream at the top of my lungs. And cry at the same time. I used to be active, now active to me is going to the market, and getting things put away in the same day. My pain and depression go hand and hand causing challenges in my everyday living. I have been to cedar point years ago, I went on the "demon drop" I dont remember any of the others. I have been to "Kings Island" a few times and rode alot of coasters there the king cobra, and the "Beast" and the Racers. Those were good times, Now id be doing good just to make it to the Darn entrace from the parking spot. I feel I have been "robbed" of all this cause I had this same mental illness then without the physical pain.
sorry so long take care

KRIS


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