Well done for hitting save instead of send. If you want... You could send it to me. You know... I was thinking about how you were saying you wanted to send an apology. And a thanks for his addendum. I think that would be appropriate. You might not get a response... But I think that would be appropriate. It is more... Lots and lots of emails that is inappropriate. And attacking / threatening emails that are inappropriate.

I would be happy to check a message over if you would like. Just PM me with it if you would like.

> I'm feeling a little lonely. Sometimes it seems like I don't matter.

Okay.

> I wonder if friendships here are real. I wonder if people really listen.

Hmm.

> I wonder if there are people who really don't like me.
> Iwish I weren't so insecure...

I feel insecure sometimes too. Regarding whether people like me or not my motto is 'you can please some of the people some of the time, but you can't please all of the people all of the time'. Sometimes people don't really like you... But in time they come to like you :-) Sometimes people can feel a little (or a lot) annoyed with you. But in time that feeling passes.

What I personally notice about feeling unconnected and ignored... Is that the fastest way to make connections is to seek people out. In posting to this thread... You are asking people to reach out to you... And in not posting to their threads... You really aren't returning the favour.

When I want to make a connection I post to other peoples threads.

Even if I can't think of what to say... Just a brief little something can mean a lot to a person (I know it means something to me). And the more time / energy you invest in reaching out to others... The more you find that people are going to invest their time / energy in reaching out to you.

Sometimes it can be hard... Especially when I'm very focused on myself and my hurts :-( But I have learned that if I do it DESPITE how I feel... Then it has the power to change how I feel when people start responding more to my posts :-)

Just a causal regularity I've noticed ;-)

Take care.