So so glad that you feel it went well. It sounds like you were incredibly skilful

I'm glad T is (finally) saying that she realises that she wasn't mindful of her limits and it's her responsibility to do so. My biggest rupture with T was about the exact same thing, and she initially communicated it all in a very emotion-mind way and just took everything away, and it took a long time to recover from that.

Also really glad T agreed to a scheduled phone call. This is what I set up with my T when I felt most unsafe with her, and we've actually kept it because it's really helpful knowing when it will be 'my turn' and it means I don't feel like I need to speak to her all the time.

I understand the part about starting to *see* how different we are, and the extreme discomfort of seeing it all clearly but not yet feeling we have the power to be any other way. It's ok to sometimes wish for the days when you didn't have the insight.

You deserve to feel peaceful. I hope you can hold inside you the rightness of the session and the warmth of the hug from T.