Hi Bethy,

I can see that you're in an awkward position. I'm not sure if you've heard of the Samaritans before. They have resources online and also in the UK and a couple of offices in the US, I believe. Anyway, you can email them (or see them in person if you live near their offices) and talk openly about your situation. They will not send anyone to the hospital, but they do provide caring listening and feedback. If for any reason you did want to be in touch with somebody and be able to discuss your situation without fear of hospitalization, that might be another resource.

Take care,
ErinBear