Thanks all.

I'm still depressed over this, even though I'm trying to block thinking about all of it. So what? No one missed me at those places. It's not like I'm important or anything.. and maybe it would have been worse (for them and/or me) if I had gone.

I have a meeting tomorrow night, no input required, just show up. That's what I'll do. Just show up. No one wants to hear what I have to say, anyway.

And I have T in day also. Now if I can not look as depressed as I am..what with this, and with my MD denying the old med instead of the AmbienCR (and treating me like an addict)... and managing the pain from the SI being out (again.)...

big deal, it's not like I'm important, you know? Got to be more humble.