It took me til the end of the session, but I brought up the time when I think he was trying to make me angry, over a year ago. I told him it hurt. I've only been back twice now since I was going to this t a year ago, and I've been really nervous to talk to him because of that incident. So, I needed to bring it up. He didn't remember it (he said) but he was SO nice. He said "I care about you" and "I'm not here to hurt you" and sorry if I hurt you. He tried to explain why he thought he might have said what he said. The explanation didn't make a lot of sense because he didn't remember what he said, and I wasn't comfortable to explain that. But I still feel better.

Part of me is screaming w embarrassment that I still needed to talk about this after a year, and that I need/want therapy like this at all. It's such a relief when he doesn't laugh at me, or act uncomfortable about it and he takes me seriously. Part of me is still afraid of him and how he can be confrontational. I hope I can be more comfortable talking to him now though.

I also feel better knowing his memory isn't that good. He asked me again if my parents were still together, which we had discussed quite a bit in the previous session. That might be a little too much forgetting, but for the most part it felt safer knowing he doesn't remember a lot of stuff. So I can stick my foot in my mouth and embarrass myself and forget about it, since he probably will too.