Dear Rebecca,

Just adding a new med and changing your brain chemistry again is totally exhausting. It is awesome that you got up and out of bed and clean and dressed. Boy can I hear that. Some days that is a miracle feat for me as well. Please don't give up. Hang in there. We are here with you. Can you call your t? Sometimes it is even helpful to do the opposite of what needs to be done at the moment. Can you just put it all aside and go to the coffee shop to write? Maybe this will put you back in charge again. Remember, you are in charge. This is your own life, no one else's. Anyone who doesn't understand, doesn't realize that this type of depression would bring them to their knees as well. People don't know what they don't know. The first and foremost is to take care of you and do what you need at the moment. My deep, deep thoughts of support go out to you.