Sigh, I wanted to abandon this thread already and only post replies to people, but I can't.

I posted a few replies today. I hope they are OK.

I'm just feeling lonely again. I hate how I can't talk about certain things. I don't have a good way to suppress my feelings. I don't have the discipline others do. When I'm depressed I have to tell the world. Like I'm important...sigh.

I keep thinking the worst when people don't reply...

I keep refreshing the forums because I'm lonely. It's sad, but I really don't have anyone other than my pdoc to talk to in real life. I don't know how people do it.

I'm inconsolable.