Thanks so much, everybody, for sharing your experiences and all of the very helpful information. I'm sorry, I'm just getting back online, so it took me a while to respond.

I just came from my session and I talked about the BPD diagnosis with my T. She said that over the past month and a half she's wondered if I have BPD. She finally decided that she wouldn't label me with BPD, but that I do display some of the symptoms related to BPD. She's worked with me long enough to be able to see my behavior over a period of time and make that determination better than I think anyone could.

The psychiatrist that I see is not a very good doctor. I don't know that I really put a whole lot of trust in much of what he says. He's not a good listener and he seems frustrated all the time. I guess that is how it goes when you see someone for free at a state facility. He humiliated me yesterday right at the beginning of my appointment and I couldn't even talk after that.

I feel sorry for the people who have this facility as their only avenue for mental health care. I'm so over the moon that I have a private practice therapist that I see twice a week, because if I had to depend only on the care at the state mental health center I would probably have given up by now.

Thanks again, for always being there for me. I really appreciate each one of you.