Definitely an internalizer. My life sucks because I'm a horrible person, have treated others badly when at my lowest, and karma's out to get me now.

Or does karma know when your actions are based on illness and doesn't take that into consideration? I don't know.

Anyway, I think I'm uninteresting, unintelligent, and don't know how to say the right things at the right times. My house is chronically a mess and the chaos meter is always above a 5. My sympathy chip has been fried. When something bad happens to someone else or they're having a hard time, I want to be able to help, but I can't seem to be able to show it in words or actions. So why would anyone want to be around me? blah blah blah I'll never have any RL friends, I'm doomed to loneliness, yada yada yada