You know, I wish my family members would go thru my days before during and after holidays as I am dealing with not only past PTSD, but ongoing trama. I am trying to work on it. I am not only dealing with a lawsuit and damaged animals but several alcoholics that want me to be a co-dependant and they really fight me, especially over the holidays.

No, I really wish they could feel what my body feels like before, during and after these events where they really try to punish me. If only they could feel the intense anxiety attacks and complete exhaustion. Do you think that maybe then they would understand? I wish that when they make it a point not to call or wish me a merry chirstmas or happy easter or I dont know what to expect this weekend, I would actually like to take off and forget it altogether, yes I wish they could get zapped with all the emotional and physical pain too.

And I just have to agree about the psychiatrists that make you feel worse because you cant deal with the side effects of antidepressants and they don't help you either.

Sorry, not having a good day at all.

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