I don't find the actual act of dissociating scary, I welcome the floaty far away from the problems feeling.

But yea finding things I don't remember buying or having people tell me I did things that I can't remember is a little scarey, but its more like a passing thought of ok here we go again she says I ...... whatever.

I have been that way all my life so for me its just another day - normal.

The scarey part for me was my starting out to go someplace and then suddenly I'd be somewhere else for example one evening I biked to a support group and on the way home it was dark. I remember unlocking my bike. And I remember getting on my bike. The next thing I know I am standing with my bike in a no lights parking lot. I ended up calling a friend on my cell who recognized where I was and she was able to talk me back onto the street that I was supposed to be on that would connect with her place. The next day I biked that route and now any time I have to be out at night I use a physicians building, a playground, another friends house and a school as landmarks.

Ive been lost before many times and I know that I always get home either by way of a friend or while in memory pieces so I don't really get scared over getting lost. That night it was the dark that scared me.

Dissociating is so normal for me thatt I dont get scared about it and didn't until I was told I may have Multiple Personality Disorder and then watched the movie Sybil. Then I was afraid. I didn't know then that some of the stuff in that movie was added for dramaitcs and so on. My being diagnosed also came after my being hospitalized so I was also afraid that if anyone found out I was a sybil then they would lock me up again.

but then years later one of my therapists explained to me I wasn't possessed or had real live people living inside me, that DID was my acting on memories that I can't remember, and just knowing the footlong label doesnt change the fact that I have had this all my life Having the label doesnt make me more crazy and so on. its just there so I get the right treatment plans. Then I was ok and back to "ok I do things I cant remember... whatever" attitude.

I think it is harder on my friends that have an isolated dissociative eppisode - never dissociating beyond the nornal spaceyness and no memory pieces (alters) of the lower 5 on the scale and then suddenly experiencing trauma in their present life. They know what happened isn't normal so it causes them more stress and fear.