part v:

this morning, my therapist sent me an email (to my old address, so that means she didn't bother putting my new one into her contacts) related to the insurance, and it's literally one sentence. she didn't address me by name, or even sign it herself. this is unusual, but i'm thinking maybe she was in a hurry.

it's really hard for me not to go to this place of doubting the relationship or of all the work we've done when i get feeling like this. it's the culmination of (i think) a lot of small things that leave me feeling really sad about it all. and i don't want to call her as i know i'll be really disappointed in myself for not giving her the space/time to go deal with her family matter.

to top it off, my partner and i still aren't getting along. i feel like almost all of my support system is now broken down, and it's just not a good place to be in.

thanks for listening (and for all of the hugs), i really appreciate it.