i have been trying to get hold of her and sending her messages but get nothing back (5 days now!) My therapist keeps saying its not my fault and that i dont know if she has or not (which is true i guess) anyway it doesnt matter now she read my poem on here and finally got in touch with me today (im hppy about it but still very hurt) i wont beat myself up that much now, i just thank god she got in touch with me. i cried reading her email b/c it was good knowing she was ok. Thank you for posting and helping, means a lot.....