The way your doc phrased that was inappropriate. He made it sould as if you are only trying to dull your pain/axiety, rather than fix the problem.
Don't take what he said to heart. Medicines are there bc we need them. Some of them are less than desireable and we have to be cautious with them, but that doesn't mean we don't need them any less. We do need them as tools to help get things under control so that we can learn to adjust and cope with our issues. It's always a risk vs. benefit thing...
You should never feel bad in anyway for having to take your meds. Some of our bodies don't work properly and we have no choice but to do what it takes to make our lives liveable.

Having said that I still totally understand where you are coming from...
I have to take Klonopin for anxiety and panic attacks. I try to go as long as possible without taking one so that I take them as infrequently as possible. When the doc first put me on them he didn't say be judicious, he just said 2 a day. I became completely dependant on 2 a day and couldn't function without that dose. I became tolerant and needed more. That frustrated me so much that I tried to come off them cold turkey. Horrible idea. Physical withdrawal symptoms can be extreme.

Anyway, I have learned to take them when I need them, and leave them when I can get by without. I push myself a little and work through some anxiety. Sometimes I wonder if that doesn't make things worse, but this is my best plan right now.

It is not an addiction to need a medication. It is just a fact of life sometimes.
Hey, our teeth are a lot healthier when we use toothepaste on them daily, but we don't call that an addiction do we??? ...just the way I think about things.