Thanks Numpty.
I think the other poster understood it might hurt me because she too is very shy and the words might have upset her if it were written to her. And I felt that way a little when I read it. But I know it was not your intention to hurt.
But even though I'm over 40 it doens't make it any easier to let go. In fact maybe that's what makes it so difficult. It's like if you've been doing something your whole life , it makes it harder to just stop because it's all you've ever known.
That's not a cop out.LOL I really want to deal with this issue . But it's not so easy as it may seem.
I do know that people aren't going to tease me anymore and the truth is if they did at this point I would just ignore it or tell them where to go. So that's not really the fear anymore. It's just that those past experiences shaped the way I think .And when you continue that thought process on into Adulthood it just becomes part of you.
Anyway, What i'm saying is I realize at this point have to confront these things but it's a process . I think that's why I came here to talk about it. I needed to get it out of my head, face it and not be so afraid of it.
I appreciate the replies.