Thank you mary alice. I haven't actually tried to kill myself, at least not intentially, i took some pills once, but i wasn't trying to die. i was just in a lot of pain and wanted it to go away. oh well, i know, when i cut this morning i just focused on it, and nothing else. it's weird, like i'm one person, then a completely different one. i have surpressed these feelings for a long time. however, some are beginning to creep to the surface, and i am finding it harder and harder not to let them flow out. *sighs* I dunno, i'm really good at keeping everything in (hence my stomach problems) and letting it out is too scary for me to think about even. I mean, then I would actually have to deal, and that scares the crap out of me. I just don't know anymore. anyway, ramble again..thanks for the advice, and take care.

~Dreamer~

[b]<font color=blue> How very empty is my soul, it is a soul that feels no thrill, it is a soul that could easily kill...--Cake[b]<font color=blue>