BlackDragon, are you on any meds that could be causing this weight gain? I ask as someone who was told -- repeatedly -- that the meds didn't cause weight gain, it was only me failing to control my eating. (I'm anorexic, so maybe it wasn't me overeating?) So many psychotropic meds will cause weight gain, and the doctors are only now starting to talk about it.

Also, talk to your doctor, whether you're on meds or not, because there are some drugs now that might help. Meridia was actually developed as an anti-depressant, so that might be helpful. At any rate, the doctor might be able to prescribe something that might help, or point you in the direction of help.

If you're entirely unmedicated, and this really is gaining because you're eating too much for your body, then before you start beating yourself up, try a tiny bit of exercise. Nothing like "Join a gym and go every day for hours and get real cut" or anything like that. Just, you know, go for a walk; park far from the entrance; wash the walls; even just dance to songs you like in your living room. (That last one is something I've done when I needed to start SOMETHING but didn't have it in me to leave the house.) Usually, you need some sort of exercise to keep your metabolism going strong, otherwise you'l l try to eat less, and your body will try to conserve energy by slowing your metabolism way down. (Right now, I've been restricting again and have actually GAINED some weight, for this very reason.)

Good luck, and I'm sorry you feel bad.