I'm feeling a bit better now. I think I know what the underlying cause was for the increased suicidal ideation. I have it mildly from time to time, though I've noticed that the few occasions I smoke weed, the after effect (aka, withdrawal), tends to do that too me. I could say it interacts with my meds, but I think even before I got on my medication that would happen. I have decreased my use(of weed) mostly, and now I think seeing as it happens more often than not afterward I think I'll have to give it up for good. Nothing's worth doing if it makes you more vulnerable to those sorts of thoughts and feelings. Anyways, I just wanted to let you all know I'm doing better than this morning.