Hi,

I came here a few times a long time ago but then I got overwhelmed and ran from all the issues and have been struggling with addiction lately. I was told I had complex ptsd and was doing emdr until the therapist grew concerned for my safety as I was getting too flooded and he feared suicide, or a hospitalization. I feel like a failure. I dont know or understand what is wrong with me that I cannot seem to get over the past. I have had addiction, self-injury , eating disorder, dissociation, night terrors , sleep walking, flashbacks, anxiety , etc I just feel like a failure and like there isnt any hope left. I am wondering if anyone with ptsd found a that emdr was too intense or if there was any particular kind of treatment that helped ?

thanks ,
jasie