SaraMichelle,
It does kind of seem kind of like your T left you high-and-dry. She's left you hanging for a while and I don't really understand why she isn't making more of an effort to communicate with you about when you'll see her next and how else you can get support in the meantime. I don't want to say anything bad about your T, but that seems kind of irresponsible.

That being said, your H is right that all you can do is be patient and wait for her to become available again. You're doing a great job with trying to contact other Ts and calling the hotline to get help. Also, remember you can go to the ER or call 911 if you can't keep yourself safe.

Your feelings about this are your feelings - they are neither good or bad so try not to judge them. It is ok to feel how you do.

Take good care of yourself, and I hope your T gets back to normal soon.