thanks for your replies, it's comforting to know that others understand what I am dealing with.
yes, it's not always dissociating, sometimes it's just not being able to pay full attention because my mind is racing ahead or in 29 different directions and I can't focus, or I am thinking about other things, and then realize later that I wasn't paying attention, I wasn't in the moment.....T knows when I dissociate, but not always when it's hard for me to simply focus.
sometimes it's just too heavy to think about too and I feel weary of focusing on the hard things......
at least I haven't forgotten homework yet, I seem to be paying enough attention when she assigns it that I do remember what she assigned......I even managed to remember what she assigned yesterday though I would rather have forgotten it!