Hi Jasie,

i wanted to recommend a couple books. The first is dealing with sexual trauma and is called "The Courage to Heal". The second is all about learning how to deal with trauma in general. It's called "Waking the Tiger" and is by Peter Levine. He's an amazing author and his premise is that trauma happens not when we fight or flight but when we freeze. So in order to heal from the trauma we need to dethaw and then work through it. Hope this helps. keep posting here.

Love and Hugs,
Tara

P.S. You sound eerily like me too!