Thank you but i still feel really bad, her getting in touch was just a little part of how i feel and now she has been in touch im not too bad but i still feel the fight isnt worth it but hey i dont believe in giving up soooo easily so fighting it is!! i have learnt that if you want something really bad then you have to fight and fight or you will never get anything in life so i guess when i feel so down i just need to remember that. thank you for your comments means a lot