I have not heard of NAMI, what is it? Thank you for welcoming me, I really hope that I can gain some insight and tips to lead a happier life. I appreciate you posting back to me. This is hard to get into such painful matter with people who are strangers. My story is so looooooooong. I don't think my hubby even knows all of it, he certainly does not know exactly what goes on in my head. I just want to be a good mother to my children, and a good wife to him. I feel like a constant failure in life.